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NaBloPoMo post: If you could get rid of a worry, what would it be?

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I am sure that my worries tend to run very similar to the general population especially being a new mom, someone who is still young and figuring out what life is all about. If the opportunity arises, the one worry I would get rid of would be the worry of money, being more specific would be the worry of the lack of money. I would love it if I lived in a world where I could wake up everyday without worrying about paying bills on time or if I can do something simple like buying coffee. Money is such a major part of our lives that we forget how powerful it is in our lives until we don’t have enough of it. I see people live the kind of lives where they travel every other week and I can’t help but think how jealous I am and wished I could live a bit more freely. Sometimes I think that if I had more money I could do so. Now, I don’t want to come across like I am not willing to work to get more money. I understand that concept completely. It is more of the idea that I am wanting to complain about it now.

What kind of worries would you want to get rid of if you could? Leave me a comment below!

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The Day that Music Died: The End Of The Penny Arcade Era


It’s the greatest question in rock n’ roll, “when was the day that music died”? Well for me and for my band Penny Arcade, that day was yesterday, September 17, 2014. It was the day that we no longer owned our band van, Lincoln. The last symbol of our “Road Warrior ways” and of a time that we believed anything and everything is possible. After many nights of debate and long discussions, my husband (who is the drummer in the band) and I decided to sell our band van. After 24 hours of being on Craigslist, we had someone buy it and it officially became the end of an era, the day that the music of Penny Arcade had died. I sat there, as I watched Lincoln and his new owner drive out of our driveway and away from the house with such a sullen smile and a goodbye wave and I had to keep telling myself to not cry. I asked myself ‘Did we do the right thing?’, ‘There were so many memories in that van, why did we just sell it like that?’ but then I realized that Lincoln did the same thing for us in selling it as when we first bought it; he helped us move forward. When we first became the owners of Lincoln, he gave us a hope that we would succeed in our dreams of being a touring band and ultimately professional musicians. With many miles, smiles and tears, he carried us from California to New York to help us follow our dreams and now he has helped us move on to other dreams because maybe it was just time for us to realize that he needed to help other peopleachieve their dreams. Maybe by holding on to him for as long as we did, it created a constant reminder of a past and a far removed dream that would never revive itself. I had this vision of selling the van to another band that would probably put another 50,000 miles on it before he would retire but I felt it would have been right that he went to an owner that surrounds themselves with music. Luckily for me, the new owner works at a church and the van is going to be used for church services and choir concerts. So I feel fortunate that we have found a new owner that will take good care of it. Yet, I still can’t help but look out to the driveway of my kitchen window, gazing at the now empty space where he was parked, lost in thoughts of the many memories that we have all shared with that van and my dreams for the hopes I had for the van in our future.

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I would tell myself that Lincoln was just a part of our lives that defined the “Penny Arcade Era” but now I realized that he wasn’t a part of our lives but we were a part of his. From a couple who used him to rescue dogs, to another couple that used him to travel the country and play music, and to now a retired Vet that will use him for his church and a personal vehicle. Who knows where he will end up next? Let’s just hope that he will bring his new owner and any future owners as much happiness that he has brought me.

Shortly after the new owner left, I got into the car to go run an errand and ultimately to get my mind off of selling Lincoln. I turned on the radio to lose myself to some music when I find I’m listening to the song made famous by Uncle Kracker. And the lyrics that I heard were:

Thanks for the joy you’ve given me
I want you to know that I believe in your song
And rhythm, and rhyme, and harmony
You helped me along, you’re makin’ me strong

Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away

This became for me the perfect way to send off Lincoln to which, every time I hear it I will now forever think of myself driving across the country, with the wind blowing my hair, a cigarette in my hand and my love and my friends by my side.

Carry on and keep moving forward for the only thing you can see in the past, is how far you have come.
Good bye, Lincoln.  May we cross roads again.

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5 Tips on Achieving Your Dreams in Life

196295_1760744710777_6297414_nWhere I stand in life, at this current moment, is in transition. I feel like I am in transition from one dream to another and some days I question my ability to follow a new dream. What keeps me going? The sole fact that I have already achieved my childhood dream, to be a professional musician. Sure, some people might say that I wasn’t technically a “professional” because I didn’t make it to that MTV Music Awards stage but still for a year of my life I lived the life of a musician. At the end of the day, I feel accomplished and satisfied in my successes as a musician.

So, in my efforts to continue to find motivation and drive towards the next dream, I have compiled my top 5 tips on how to achieve your dreams. In hopes that it will not only keep me motivated to achieving my next life dream but maybe give you, my reader friend, a new way of looking at the goals and dreams you have set out in your mind and just how to complete them.

  1. Never take “No” for an answer. “No” is a very ugly word but when you are searching for achieving the one thing in life that you dream of, you can’t see it as an ugly word. You have to see it as a another wall to break down to get to the other side. How I also see it, if you take “no” as an answer to anything, it makes me question how much it really means to you. For example, if you want to walk into a bank looking for a loan on your dream house and they tell you that you have bad credit and won’t approve you the loan, what would you do? Accept the bank’s answer as final word and miss out on that dream house? Or fight for the dream of living in your own home and consider your options? That’s right! You would fight! You would march towards that loan officer and demand to find out why your credit is so bad and how you can fix it in order to get your dream house.  Now that is the way you never take no for an answer because you find out other ways to make your dreams work for you.
  2. The Bigger the Better. My life mantra has always and will forever be, “Dream Big, Live the Life.” From this point forward, it should be yours too. If you want to dream you might as well have the biggest dreams in all of the universe! No one can stop your mind from dreaming and that is the beauty of dreams. This is the stage of living the dream life that is one of my favorites because I can imagine a whole array of things for myself that I wish to achieve. This is not something that people should feel guilty about nor should you feel unhappy about dreaming bigger and better things for yourself. It is all about being honest with yourself and understanding that if there is something you dream about and you question it then maybe it isn’t for you or maybe it is just the thing you need. While you are dreaming big make sure you are also dreaming honest too. That is the only way you will ever truly get what you want out of your life.
  3. Failure?? What’s that? Have you ever thought to yourself, “Well, I could do this but I might not be any good at it?” Well, that my friend is being afraid of failure and that is when you need to get up and shake that off. Literally, get up off your butt and do a  booty dance. Trust me it will make you feel silly in all of the right ways and put a smile on your face. See you already forgot what your were dreading about in the first place! Don’t be afraid of an end result that you haven’t even given a chance to yet. The only failure you can receive from your dreams is not trying to achieve them. That is the ultimate failure you can have with achieving your dreams, is just not trying to go for them because you are afraid of failure. You are doing the one thing you are afraid of by being afraid! so get that booty shaking and with it all your doubts and fears but we are doing this, we are following our dreams!
  4. What is your motivation? After all that booty shaking, you must now think about what is it that is ultimately driving you to achieve your dreams.  Consider this, September 17, 2012 was the day that I decided to quit smoking. It has now been over a year that I have not only quit smoking but I also have taken up yoga and exercising as well. My motivation? What drove me to quit a bad habit and make a better person physically out of myself? It was the fact that, when I was younger I told myself I would never be absent in any part of my life. More specially, I wouldn’t be the type of mother that I did not have when I was growing up. I would imagine myself with my future children and just think, “Okay Emma, you want to meet them, right? Well, let’s jog this mile!” That is what you need to do, find the things that makes you want to be a better you. Ultimately, that is what we dream about right? Being a better version of ourselves?
  5. Have a kick ass support system. Most people often skip this step and not entirely on purpose either. It is just some people don’t realize how important the people your surround yourself with are to you and your greater well-being. So that is why this tip is probably the most important tip that I could offer. Having a support system of family, friends or even co-workers can do wonders for your dreams and for your motivations. When it comes down to it, when others believe in you and your dreams, you tend  to find it easier to believe it them along as in yourself as well. For me, it was my husband. He was the one that I could fully rely on to support my dreams to being a professional musician. When I had my doubts and times of weakness, he would lift me back up and show me my own strength. Even when I consider other dreams that I wish to achieve, I still remember his epic speeches and those comforting hugs. Those are the moments that still stick with me to this very day. Having support from those you love and trust will help you with every other aspect of achieving your dream because it will give you the greatest thing of all: confidence.

Whatever your dreams might be or even if they change so frequently that you never quite know where you will end up, never forget the things you are dreaming about because those dreams are the very things that will make you change your life for the better. With these tips I am confident that anyone can achieve whatever dream they wish to dream. For me, it is one of my many dreams to be able to inspire someone to go after what they dream about. So if my tips help in any way, please feel free to share that with me!



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